Alexis A. du Champ

Yeah, I've been missing

Thu, 30 Jan 2003 02:31:00 GMT

So, umm, yeah.

Obviously, I've been not posting for quite a while. That's mostly from not really feeling that I have anything to say, and partly from having too much work to get done.

I probably won't get anything except some rants in (about the use of certain terms in English which don't seem to bother most people) for a while yet, either. C'est la vie.

Random 'personality' test

Thu, 30 Jan 2003 02:14:42 GMT

Below are my Lûscher Color [sic] quiz results. They're not even as inaccurate as I'd feared... though I'm not sure how truly accurate they are, even so.

Your Existing Situation

Unable to exert the effort to achieve her objectives. Feels neglected, desiring greater security, warm affection, and fewer problems.

Your Stress Sources

Sensitive and impressionable, prone to absorbing enthusiasms. Seeks an idealized--but so far unfulfilled--situation in which she can share with another a complete accord and mutual depth of understanding. Feels there is a risk of being exploited if she is too ready to trust others and therefore demands proof of their sincerity. Needs to know exactly where she stands in relationships.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.

Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.

Unhappy at the resistance she feels whenever she tries to assert herself. However, she believes that there is little she can do and that she must make the best of the situation.

Your Desired Objective

In despair and needs relief of some sort. Wants physical ease, a problem free security, and the chance to recover.

Your Actual Problem

Intensely critical of the existing conditions which she feels are disorganized or insufficiently clear-cut. Is therefore seeking some solution which will clarify the situation and introduce a more acceptable degree of order and method.

Your Actual Problem #2

Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

Sun, 25 Aug 2002 04:09:33 GMT

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	msduchamp User Number: 653429 Date Created:2002-08-02 Number of Posts: 6
Alexis is bitchy, sullen, touchy, irritable, vicious, rude, catty, short-tempered -- but basically a sweetie!
Strengths: Strong, caring, intelligent, witty, sarcastic, protective
Weaknesses: sensitive, moody, internet junkie
Special Skills: MUF-coding weather goddess
Weapons: Knives, nunchaku, hands, feet, teeth, nails, double-edged razor-sharp tongue, scathing wit, crushing put-downs
Mental Case: DID (a/k/a MPD), PTSD, occasional depression

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Communication 101 - Failed

Wed, 14 Aug 2002 20:55:52 GMT

After an on-line conversation with aetherealcreepy, it's become yet more clear to me that my communications skills are not what I'd like them to be. Part of that's an outgrowth of who, or maybe I should say what, I am - or have been, anyway. It's part of a Protector's job to seem angry when the situation's confusing, since the combination of confusing situation and Protector is out tends to mean that the situation is potentially threatening.

Well, my understanding that mechanism doesn't help with how it feels to others. It also doesn't make it right for how things are now. Trying to learn other ways to handle things, though, is going to be tough. Oh, in the abstract, it looks easy. When the ordure hits the rotating air-circulation device, however, it's tough to notice that it's a situation where something new should be tried, instead of what's become essentially reflexive. *sigh*

At least I know that it will be tougher than I'd like, since I've succeeded in some of it before. I've just had my nose rubbed in the fact that I'm not done with such things yet. Such fun.

I hate being sick.

Fri, 09 Aug 2002 19:06:13 GMT

Well, I was sicker than I thought. My sister tried to take care of me, but that only did so much good. I still have an intermittent fever and swollen lymph glands, but it's all better than it was. So much fun.

In the meanwhile, it would seem that the SailorOrion quizzes have all disappeared. That kinda sucks, but it's the nature of the web these days.

I suppose I should start trying to add other stuff here, but there are a lot other things I need to do, too. Especially trying to catch up on both role-play and coding requests on Twilight, and updating my (more) permanent web page data. Maybe at some point I should even think about getting a life again, but I'm not sure at this point that it's really worth it. *sigh*

C'est la guerre.

But puking is not one of my hobbies!

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 00:56:22 GMT

Gee, it's so much fun to be sick. Not!

Had plans for the day, but they got tubed when I found myself spitting up everything down to my toenails this morning. Whee! Such fun. Slept most of the day. Well, more like tried to, since it wasn't very restful. Lack of physical affection, along with sexual frustration, made a hash of my dreams. And, of course, to make things just perfect, the plans that got scotched would have involved getting some of that missing affection. But enough of that - I hate the sound of my own kvetching.

Otherwise, last night (before I got feeling bad) I was browsing through some of the matching interests and such, and found plenty of interesting people and communities. Even if I don't wind up doing a lot of actual journaling per se here, it looks like a cool virtual "hangout" of sorts. And who knows? Maybe I'll even re-learn the art of journaling. Stranger things have happened. Especially to me. Besides, I can comment in friends' LJ entries now without it having to be anonymous. I just never was into doing it anonymously.

So now I'm a hairdresser?

Sun, 04 Aug 2002 02:47:22 GMT

Had some fun helping my niece's friend do some maintentance on her mohawk. The sides had grown out a lot, and needed shaving. She was all nervous about cuts, so I dug up an old electric razor that still works, and we used that. Some of it should still be touched-up by hand, with a regular razor, but it went pretty well. (:

So I'm easily amused

Fri, 02 Aug 2002 20:22:04 GMT

It's fun to play with the customisation features, at least. I'm still not sure what I'm really going to do with this, but at least I'm entertaining myself today. (:

A beginning

Fri, 02 Aug 2002 10:25:24 GMT

Well, I've finally been tempted into this. Not at all sure what I'll use this for, since I'm not normally the journalling type, but we'll see.